傻傻的我

rawr rwar !~

2006-04-23T08:30:00.000-07:00

haix .. sian sian sian ah .. sooo boring ehs life >.< .. i suddenly hope that school reopen soon can settle all my financial problems .. haix ~~!

lfie is dull and boring =D .. im a very stupid person =x .. hahah ~~ easily cheated ~.~ .. aiya .. life really dull till got nth to write =.="" die = good .. =P ..

Colors Colors i wan euu =( . . where are euu =( .. haix !!

-DeNgDeNg-Dull Dull
Die Die Die
Die HAHAHAHAH~

rawr

2006-04-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

rawr rawr .. lols ! 19days since i last updated mua bloggie !! well was busy workinz and inbetween many stuffs happened =D .. its a long story too ..

firstly im no longer working .. had a quarrel with my boss for being so idiotic =.="" in a heated arguement .. i decided i shouldn't carry on working there haha .. and it was true .. after i left many followed along to leave LOL .. but its not my influence la x_X !! haix .. i really miss that place lots .. but the fucked up boss .. make sthe ppl there unhappy .. he doesn't treat us as humans. .. more likes his slave .. rawr .. i curse him *@&%(#&%*(#%

secondly .. today got my exams result ! !LOL improvement by 1 grade .. my last exam G.P.A = 2.3 this term 2.4 =P .. im improved .. LOL ~ slowly slowly improve ~~yay yay !! =p =p ..

lastly .. colors ah colors .. haix .. i really dun ask for much .. jes someone who can be my side when i need her and hear my problems out and vice versa .. i dun put much expectations to getting any colors !! im so ugly rawr .. im dissapointed with my self ..

-DeNgDeNg- dissapointed ..
Dead As of 21thApril2006
Remember Me For Who i Am
Accept Me For Who i Am ..

ahhhh .. dead =/

2006-04-02T18:21:00.000-07:00

hmm guys .. forgive me for being so inactive for updating my blog .. i guess i will be super inactive for 1 mnth till 30th april .. will be werking almost everyday 10.30 am till 11 pm .. haix .. though its tiring .. i guess thats e best way for me to forget bout sad things .. work can make me forget a lot of things i hope so =/ ..

ByTheWay .. why is searching for colors so hard ? can someone tell me ?_? .. im really really really tired manx =/ .. why does colors come so hard .. haix .. im really not sure ..

-DeNgDeNg- is goin to inactive
Colors Are Hard to be found =/
Hope i Find Mines Soon =/

=.=""""

2006-03-25T06:27:00.000-08:00

sianx sianx sianx .. whole dae doin nothing .. rotting at home ~.~ !! like a lifeless person .. hmm come to think of it im really lifeless .. Colors !! colors !! where are mua colors ?? issit really so hard to find colors in your life ?? haix .. or issit that im jes a plain failure ?? i really dunnoe .. i think i am a failure =) .. in everythings i do .. i fail miserably .. Borned - Failure maybe ?

Recently incidents make me become pessimistic towards life and everything in this world .. who to trust and not to trust .. who to help and who not to help .. i dun think will be the old me .. helping whoever i can and getting into troubles myself =) .. time to be smart ~^_^~ .. the old bubblyz + lifely de mie ish gone ~^_^~ .. maybe when the day i found my colors it may or may not come back .. God Knows !

__D e N g D e N g__ Lifeless =D
Trusts In Nobody =) ..
Colors Colors .. Where Are Euu ??

sienz sienz sienz

2006-03-23T06:28:00.000-08:00

why ish life so sarks ?? issit wrong to help a friend ?? or someone close to miee ? .. life is so fucking unfair and im fucking pissed with my life .. nevertheless , i would like to thank my friends letting me learn a valuable lesson which is neber to pok your nose in to anything .. JES MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS !! thats e best and safest way .. but lets sae . .if you mind your own business ? they will sae .. wah u buay steady la or wat blah blah .. no integrity .. 'yi qi' .. so what shld i do ?? both ways also seems a wrong way .. so dun yew sae life is sarks? and fucking unfair ? i really is getting dam dam dam tired of life .. watever i do seems wrong .. nth seems right in others ppls eyes ! fuck my life !

My Life = Like The Olden Times Tele .. jes black and white ?? dull and boring .. and always faulty .. really nth to sae bout my life liaos !! its really sarkz to e max to e core !!

-DeNgDeNg- Hates His Fucking Life
Can I Die Pls ??
Really Need Colors in Mua Life !!

zzz .. zzz .. zzz ?

2006-03-21T06:06:00.000-08:00

hmmmss ... today dam tired and dulan .. waited till 4am++ for e quest to unlock .. when i go sleep it unlock .. so dulan !! $120SGD fly away like that .. haix .. wat makes me more dulan is my ex keep ask me patch with her .. its really dam irritating .. i already sae i dun think so she still can bug on me for 1whole hour asking e same question .. finally no choice blocked her on msn .. if yew happen to view my blog . .when u hab totally settled down and calm urself down den gib me a sms to add yew back =,= .. i really is dam tired and currently single life still is good for me =) ..

life is goin on pretty fast pace and stressful .. nxt weeks exams .. really stresssed ah !! btw .. im still searching for e colors in mua life >.< .. where are they ?? tired of black and whites !! its really dam bland !! colors colors !! where r u ??

-DeNgDeNg- wans colors
Where Are They ?

haish ..

2006-03-17T06:22:00.000-08:00

colors .. colors .. colors .. i need colors in my life .. haish .. black and white is really killing me . . seeking for those colors in my life .. issit really so hard to find someone to talk to ?? haish .. share my problems ?? i really dunno why .. life is dull and sucksss to e core .. rawr ...

today go watch 'Dorm' with my friends -_-" totally pure wasting of marney .. storyline sux + in thai language read subtitles till headache .. and its totally not scary at all -__-" seems like a comedy to me more than horror flim -.- .. strongly advised not to watch .. but this show is as dull as my life .. maybe suits me ? dull and colorless >.<

-DeNgDeNg- lookins for his colors
Colors Colors Colors ?
Where Are Euuu ??

hmms ??

2006-03-16T06:10:00.000-08:00

hmmms ... lifes pretty dull and boring this few days .. got tests cramping up on me like mad @.@ ? haix .. today while chatting with my ex workign friend .. make me think back of past memories !! haix .. sec school .. den to working life .. suddenly missed that type of life alot @.@ .. but everyone has to move on .. i wonder ! if life could be more colorful for mines .. its like all black and white .. dull and boring .. and i have no sense of direction of where i am goin too .. thats why puzzles me most .. i neber put into serious consideration anythings .. haix ! can i die pls ?

-DeNgDeNg- Needs Someone To Show The Way
Death Is E Only Option ??

haix ..

2006-03-12T06:37:00.000-08:00

Long Time Since i Evered posted =.= .. im counting my days and seconds b4 i breakdown totally .. mums been cramping very tight on me .. so many things are goin to happen .. now i realise how fragile friendship is .. and how much we can trust ppls .. haix .. i really am getting very very tired .. maybe mua life ishx meant to be like that ..

really dunno wats to sae bout my life ..

-DeNgDeNg- counting down ^.^
†ill e daes come ..
D-Day .. !

haix haix sad sad dae!

2006-03-08T06:17:00.000-08:00

hmmms ... today is really a totally screwed up dae .. so many things happened in 1 day .. firstly .. school project presentation totally screwed up .. most probably failed ! haix !! .. nxt play 21 dian , kena my friend accuse i shoot his card to the banker .. kena 1 punch in my chin .. neber mind .. den finally at night broke up with my gf .. it was a really tough decision and i really is very sorry to her .. haix .. but i am jes not used to this type of life maybe too long din go into a relationship .. haix .. really feel very bad .. im jes a useless person and fucked up person actually .. haix .. anyways .. lookin forward neber lookin back ..

New Life .. New Beginning ..

-DeNgDeNg- is a Lonely person
Hurtss Di Reality x_X!~!

hmmmss

2006-03-05T07:04:00.000-08:00

Feeling berri e tired and sleepy today cos a day night outside really made me very tired .. haix .. life ? wat is life ? isssh being good wrong also ?? all my friends sae that im too good to pplss thats why i always ended up being bullied and used .. i really dunno wat should i do .. being a person is really hard .. if u are too good , u end up being bullied , but if u become heartless .. u will become a bad person .. i'm really in a major dilemma .. it seems like life isn't goin the way i wan it to be .. im soon gonna lose control of myself and breakdown .. many problems seems comin at e same time .. money , friends , studies and etc .. im really countin down the days till i breakdown completely .. death could be e only option out when tat day come ..

-DeNgDeNg- is counting his days
Hours By Hours ,
Minutes By Minutes ,
Secs By Secs ..
The Day Is Approaching ..

fuck myself for being so fucked up

2006-03-03T07:39:00.000-08:00

i officially sae that im fucking hating myself for being such a fucked up person and all the fucked up things i did .. i am starting to hate myself more and more each dae and starting to grow tired of living each day .. im losin grip over myself god knows one day i might jes breakdown .. i appear to be happy .. deep inside im jes a person who is getting more and more tired of life ..

-DeNgDeNg- dun understand wats life
Life's A Suffering ..
How I Wish .....

haix haix haix

2006-03-01T06:41:00.000-08:00

haixx .. today is a very bad dae !! supposedly to meet laopo but i last minute FFK her and im very guilty bout that .. really sorry >.< .. hmmms .. today after school sit outside school and gamble till 4++ den accompany my friend go Woodlands .. den i go back to Plaza Singapura to meet my friend chiobu ahahahahahhaa .. we go eat dinner together and talk cock la .. hahaha .. hes mua best buddy lars .. today very dulan .. got a call frm my mother chao kan me .. make me very pissed .. haix .. i really dunno wat to sae lar !! i wan little bit more freedom pls !!! im not a small kiddie ... haix .. dulan dulan dulan ar .. maybe shld sponsor her go watch Xiao Hai Bu Ben 2 den she noe ... anyways .. go back play yahoo pool getting addicted muahhahahahs ...

-DeNgDeNg- Wans Freedom
- Let Me Go -

-.-

2006-02-25T06:40:00.000-08:00

hmmmss .. today feel very tired ystd chat wib laopo till 4am yesterday night .. wake up at 11 am .. ahahahaa .. den laopo go out wib her parents to bugis to jalan jalan .. haha .. me leis ? at home doing nothing .. wasting a sat day hahaha .. lols .. hmms .. lookin forward to tuesday cos i goin meet laopo go out hahah .. hmms .. tomolo goin out to buy shoes =X .. ahhaah finally i can buy my shoe after so long .. k la i go continue talk to laopo ^_^

-DeNgDeNg misses her alot -
- ^_^ -

- -"

2006-02-24T06:12:00.000-08:00

hmmsss .. yi qie dou shi wo de chuo ! watever happened today is mua fault ..bu guan laopo de shi .. i make her angry and make her cried .. i hate myself alot .. actually at first we agreed to go out wib her friend and bf everything sae till sui sui le suddenly she sae she duan go le cos her friend not goin cos no marney .. den i dam dulan cos already tell miie marmi i going out later she sure sae i bluff her .. so i keep ask laopo go out with me she duan i keep force her till she cry =( .. really dulan with myself and hate myself so much .. haix .. today is really a bad day make her cried twice .. so dam hate myself ..

-DeNgDeNg is a bad laogong -
- Kill Me Pls -

wee wee wee

2006-02-23T07:27:00.000-08:00

hmmsss .. today go to school as per normal but exceptionally careful den usual cos erm dun wan to sae la .. think tml also got to do e same .. haix ! anyways .. today gamble frm 1pm to 4pm nearly 5 den go home .. only win $4 hahaha .. den go back time sms my darling ask her wat she doin she still at school lolz .. in e end she reach home later den me =x .. miss her a lot >.< .. hmms !! anyways .. now waitin for my friend to dl gunbound dunno dl till how - - .. if he still dun come back on9 i go sleep le .. hahaha !! time for beddie =X ..

-DeNgDeNg Lurves His Darling -
- ^___^ -

wee ~~

2006-02-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

heheh . .today very eppie day worx .. hmms finally found someone to share my problems and all wor .. its been long since i last had a gf .. i think i will try my best to make this relationship work >.< .. hmms anyways chatted on the fone long long time with her ahahha .. anyways .. tml is another boring school day -_-' haix .. Basic Electronics again .. 2pid lesson .. yawns ! anyways .. go back to play game =X ..

-DeNgDeNg isshhh in Lurbbbb -
- Lurve Is All Arnd -

epPieEppIeday

2006-02-21T06:29:00.000-08:00

hmmsss .. 2dae woke up at 6.15am dunno fer wut but suddenly jes woke up .. so decided to sms her cos she goin school wat .. but den fell asleep again .. afternoon i meet her go watch Xiao Hai Bu Ben 2 .. quite a nice show la .. content good .. touching also .. she ended up crying =X .. hmms after that accompany her go take her pay den send her home .. actually wan find someone eat dinner with me de .. but but .. no one .. so lonely go pack dinner home and eat with mum hahaha .. anyway today quite an enjoyable dae =p .. hmms time to go rest .. tml still got school .. rawr ..

-DeNgDeNg is Dead -
- Dun Bother Finding Me -

sianz diao !

2006-02-16T06:10:00.000-08:00

haix .. why is mua life like that ?? when will i get freedom .. mum keeps calling me and rushing me to go home .. i jes dunno why .. its really pissing me off manz .. she can miss call me 29 times .. its really jes so crazie .. i learnt smth .. switch off vibration and ignore whatever is that .. haix !! today already very shag .. + come home kena chao kan by my mama .. really make me moodless .. haix .. guess i gonna rest early today .. ystd night slept quite late and many things happened this few days .. making me mood low .. haix !! diaoz !!

-DeNgDeNg- is like a bird in a cage , awaiting to break free one day -
Gone With The Wind -
Dead Dead DeNgDeNg -

haix haix !

2006-02-15T07:55:00.000-08:00

haixx why isshh mua life so sad and fucked up = = .. haix is looks that really that matters now ??? maybe so ... maybe thats e sad fact of reality .. im really speechless and wordless .. haixx .. i dun blame anyone .. i blame myself ..

Gone With The Wind -
dun bother finding me -

Officially Dead -

WTF ?!!?!?!

2006-02-14T06:50:00.000-08:00

-DeNgDeNg- Issshxxx Offficiaaallly a 2ppppiddd and most kam gong person in this world !! most 2pidest boi and kam gong to ask the galll he likee to accepptt another guy .... fucking dunno wat i doin manz .. V.day maybe sot sot jor ... haix .. but i really dunno wat im doin manz .. but i hope that she happy i also happy la .. its no use to force relationship butt the most dulan part is i am like the one who so called " matchmake" them together !! haizz .. i think im the most kam gong and 2pidest boi liao in this world .. no wonder single for 2yrss cos 2pid ugly and kam gong .. i wan go bang wall liao ..

-DeNgDeNg- is dead ...

Sux Sux Day

2006-02-13T08:15:00.000-08:00

hmms today as usual went to school den afternoon play cards wib friendss ahahha normal routine !! den after that leh 3pm go to the Subordinate Court to see my few friends case how .. hmms the verdict out on 1 more mnths time .. actually already roughly noe the verdict le ... haixx !! after that lei .. outside the court only got 'tai ji' again = ="" jitao they go plaza meet the guy den after that by the time we reach there already 'sua' le den they go Bedok settle another case !! aiya .. i really dunno whats happening to me man ~~~ .. recently feel very dulan with myself .. maybe over loneliness bahss ..how i h0pe theres someone to accompany me to pass Valentine's Day and other impt days .. i think ishhx ' Ke Wang Bu Ke Qiu ' only can think but will neber come true .. anyways to0 all e coupless wishing u all a

Eppie Valentine's Dae =D ...

-DeNgDeNg-

haixxx

2006-02-12T06:50:00.000-08:00

hmms .. so long didn't update mua bloggie dy =.= " .. haix been very busy this few days rushing out mua work to meet e deadline finally finished and i can relax back abit =p .. hmms ... sometimes i wonder ... issit really soooo harddd to find someone who likes me and i like her too ???? being lonely is not good if too long ='( ! itttss realllli killling meeeeeeeee !! seeing ppl couple couple haix ~ anyways maybe this is mua fate bahss .. ugly person like meee only can suffer in silenceee bahs ~ Valentines Day comin in 2 days time and its the 2nd lonely Valentines day =D ... ? achievement ??? nahsss not suress definitely it isn't or it mite beeee ...haixzzz ...

yawnz~

2006-02-09T06:07:00.000-08:00

lolz ~ today go school early in e morning to finish up my unfinished workpiece now freaking tired = =" .. but at least finished something .. after school leh went to Yishun play few round of Initial D den went back home to rest le ! on the way home sms many friends maybe tml goin back to mua sec skool look see look see ~ hmms !! its been long b4 i last went back .. anyway i do not miss anything inside that school jes goin back cos maybe goin out wib friends if their results good .. my sec school gib me terrible memories .. partially of it is why im in ITE now but i do not regret the ITE route bahs .. its another slowly alternative to Poly .. that day teacher jes show us a road map of our future ! hmms seems quite bright wor !! now must gambateh and get good GPA once graduate report for NS liao lolz ~ now its time to go take a rest = ="""" ...

unlucky day =.=

2006-02-07T06:07:00.000-08:00

today very the unlucky lehx really dunno wats happening to me also ~ today go school only kena 'kan' frm teacher for shouting vulgar language into auditorium ! den after that afternoon go play cards leh suddenly Cantontment Police come again den tiok liao la kena copy name again !! really dunno wat happening man .. play card also keep 'bao' very dulan ! after that reach home go change den go yishun meet friend again liaox !! haix really dunno today happen wat to me ! nw very stress stress over no money ! anyone got part time job intro me oks !! =P sms me @ 81008517 =P .. anyway my friends all sae i change a lot ! i change for the worst haix i also think so how !! jialat !! haix !~

-p-P

2006-02-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

hmms .. so long din update againz !! haix so busy manz !~ so many problems also .. life why so suckz !! LoNeLy-` LoNeLy-` .. Valentines day approaching marks i hab been single for nearly 2 years omg ~! haix bo pian la ugly ppl is like that de -.-" .. dunno why all my friends got so many gurls wan to know them haiyoyo .. den summore they choose a lot ~ haha .. aiya also dun envy them too much xP better work hard find a gurl first hmm ~ anywayz ! life is really gettin dull man !! need to excite myself up !! haha !!

Yawnz Long Long Dayy

2006-02-03T06:40:00.000-08:00

hmm .. few days din update bloggy dy cos was sick and den busy wib many stuffies ~ recently keep feeling very tired dunno why =,= .. today go school den try new dish haha .. Sambal Fried Fish With BeeHoon LOL .. supposedly to be Sambal Fried Fish Rice .. the auntie was very puzzled with my choice but jes no appetite fer rice .. maybe CNY period eat too much rice liao .. after that leh go my friends GF hse repair her lap top cos my friend ask her dl thing she go dl till virus -.- " aiyo .. repair till i very dulan den i ask her reformat but i no experience in reformatting lap top leh =( .. ended up she ask her cousin tml help her reformat haha ~ anyway ~ bubble tea sucks =,= "" especially OreO + Cappaucino + Pearl makes me wanna puke when my friend bought today lucky i din follow and buy 1 cup if nt sure fainted ~~ ..hmms times for games ~~ tatax~~

Wee

2006-01-31T07:06:00.000-08:00

hmmph .. CNY 3rd day ?? today mua relatives frm Malaysia went back and suddenly my home became very quiet .. not quite used to it after 1 whole day of many activities =D .. anyway this CNY is my most dullest CNY dunno why maybe of certain reasons ba >< ! anyways tml is back to school and hope it will bring mua life back ! poker gg ~~ looking forward to tml !~

CNY First Day =D

2006-01-29T07:35:00.000-08:00

wellz early in e morning at 7am of the CNY first day the lion dance troupe came my hse downstair and wake everyone up but nebertheless i fell asleep backiez againz maybe too tired =P .. wellz wake up at 10.30 am den brush teeth eat some fried rice den went Compass Point Play Initial D .. hahahz ~ den after taht came home prepare go grannie hse makan makan /e2 !! reach there nia den greeted my grandparents and all Eppie New Year den ang pao come liao =D .. happy happy lolz .. hmm but somehw today will be the end of dull CNY cos tml my relatives frm Malaysia would be comin out and stay at our place fer few days lol ~ think can't update mua bloggie for a few days =X .. anyways .. eppie new year ppls ~~ dun forget share ur ang pao wib me =X ..

Wee You Wee

2006-01-28T08:23:00.000-08:00

wee you wee ~~ CNY is here ~~ yesterday night went Rush with a groupie of friends actually wanted to sneak into MU but failed =/ .. so we met after that .. went to rush arnd 12++ go in nia w00ts .. scary man all eyes on us =.= make me very scared but after a while we got to the dance floor and started to get into the mood haha ~! after 2 hrs of hardcore blasting techno .. went outside to take a sit den saw 2 cases of intention of fight .. but stopped by police lolz ~! larkee ystd we all no tai ji if nt sure kena police question ~~ after that we 'sua' to the prata shop and talk cock a bit while waiting for another grp of friends to come meet us frm MU ~ den some fell asleep while some eat and i watch house of the dead the shop playing ahahah ~ when the clock strikes 6am suddenly felt very energetic ~~ dunno why =/ after that we all went home at 6.30 am dne we waited for a cab den went home =D .. reach home striaght bath and sleep lolz ~ nw feeling very tired @@ !! anyways Eppi Chinese New Year Peeps ~~!

scary day ~.~

2006-01-26T06:04:00.000-08:00

hmm today as normal go to school wib my friend .. today he wait for me =X ahahaha ~! reach school nia straight no mood go work cos kena teacher "kan" den sibei bo mood so cincai drill few hole den go slack liao ! den go down eat lunch finish come up find my friend den realise got problem !! he and one guy wan fight =,= so call all those friend up den we go canteen find that guy ask him outside talk =,=" ended up they called 20++ ppl we 40++ lolz =,= but finally no fight la also good if not consequences jialat ! really scare me sia first time see so many ppl wah lao crowdin arnd scare me =,=" .. nw feeling very tired haix !! tml still early morning lesson so i better go sleep first =D .. tatax ~!

Power Day~

2006-01-25T06:05:00.000-08:00

today i jes discovered i am a very patient person =X ! i ystd waited for my friend 1½ hour also neber feel anything .. today waited for him ½hour again also din feel anything hahaha !! power ~ anyway today hectic day .. after school as usual play cards at void deck den rush home to go town to collect my pay !! collect pay le happy thot can straight cash take den cb go the bank close dulan rush take cab go shaw house cos they sae still open .. reach there still open i very happy but den my number reach ccb again sad ! i forget bring my IC cannot take straight cash .. bai mang yi chang na bei ! den end up cross opposite to borders to bank in my cheaque ! wat a hectic day make me very dulan ... after that go hougang mall play initial D liao go back makan wib my friends and mum den go back compass makan again = =" today really power dunno frm one end go till another end making me very tired .. i think i go rest liaox .. ~~

Aiyo Ystd Forget To post =X

2006-01-24T16:16:00.000-08:00

aiyo~ yesterday din posted anything today make up =P .. hmm .. on monday night ~ i finally gave up on her ~ cos noeing that she doesn't like me and draggin on will make matters only worst i rather i be the one unhappy rather den her .. when i send her the message i was really in a down down mood but i manage to pick myself up againz .. aiyo dun wish to talk bout it le later make me sad again = =" .. ystd night went to Hougang Plaza to meet my friend and her gurlfriend .. den after he send his gurlfriend on cab .. we went arcade lolz~~ aiya i also a bit lame -.-" .. i think i stop here ba time to go school -.-"

What A Fucking Cb Day

2006-01-23T06:07:00.000-08:00

today is a long day ~ go school do many thing den afternoon report late for lesson went to talk wib Section Head For 1½ hours ... den go meet my friends go bugis they wan buy clothes for new year ~ power today in mrt got 1 gang of ppl 5 of them keep diao us den like parrot we sae wat they repeat wat .. lan ciao we diao them back they duan alight at my school stop .. fucking door close nia they point us middle finger no balls ~ 5 ppl dun dare fight 4 ppl wat the fuck is this ???? lan ciao step 1 ah beng look but humji like nobody ~ act big ~ suak duan tok bout those balless ppl liao ~ power go bugis with friends see many 'cai' .. lol .. budden no interest in them only got interest for 1 gurl nia =P .. den go eat friend treat ~ curry fish head w00t eat till bao bao ~ den wan go back time walking to mrt 1 cb taxi driver so fucked up point me middle finger .. he lucky got passenger nia if nt sure pull him down talk na bei ~ !

Long Long & Tired Day

2006-01-22T06:05:00.000-08:00

hmm today feeling very tired even though slept till 12noon @@ .. wake up only den straight go out wib mum go buy new year stuffies go many places somemore make me even more tired =( .. today 2nd day of no sms her .. i feel weird like smth is missing in my life but i jes dunno hw and wat to sae to her .. but escaping is not a forever alternative .. but i jes can't pick myself up to make a decision to gib up on her or to continue >< ! wat shld i do ?? maybe only god noes !!

Lonely Lonely Day

2006-01-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

today is yet another boring + dull day .. slept till 12 noon den wake up .. haiz .. today whole day din sms her cos i really dunno wat to sae to her or do about it .. currently i can't jes come to the fact that i hab to gib up on her ><" maybe escaping might be another alternative and i will go on waiting for her and hoping fer her acceptance .. maybe thats jes me the silly silly me doing silly and stupid things but i jes can't bear to gib up on her haix god pls tell me wat to do ?!?!?

Wat A Bad Day For Me

2006-01-20T06:03:00.000-08:00

Today during school lunch break playing cards at void deck suddenly tio screen by HSA ppl cos my friends smoking = =" kena body check ! Den after that we continue to play cards elsewhere den ended up playing push-ups as the bet ! wah lao i din more den 70 pumping and now hand aching ! reach home i sms her and got a sad sad reply frm her asking me to gib up on her , so much to end my sad and bad day .. now in a dilemma wat shld i do ? why does my love life sucks so much ?! why ?!

lol long day @@"

2006-01-19T04:22:00.000-08:00

after a long day at school reach home den make this blog liao getting dizzie omg !! but nvm la at least finally finished maybe a bit gurly la but i still searching for skin hoho temporary first =X !! k la time to take a break